Poems Page 2

NO MORE GOODBYES

I never wanted it to come to this
Never let myself think it would
When the time would come to let you go
And I don’t know yet if I could
I don’t want to say goodbye
For there’s nothing good about it
Too much of what you are still lives
To think of going on without it
I don’t want to let you go
Though others have said their goodbyes,
Seems I’m always the last to know
A goodbye my heart just won’t allow
So I'll make to you this vow
I won't say it
I won't think it
And I won't ask myself how
I don’t want to say goodbye
I don’t want to close that door
I don’t want your time here to be over
When it should be so much more
So maybe I’m in denial
‘cause the truth’s too much to face
but I can’t leave you left behind
alone and scared in that haunted place
one of the missing, caught in some twisted purgatory
as if you were gone without a trace
I can’t stand the thought of you
Hurt and weak and wondering why
Why no one’s there to help you
And my soul begins to die
Little by little, a piece at a time
I just can’t bear to leave you there
To know you've been left behind

And part of me knows there’ll be no happy ending
Though I hope for one each day
To hear the news that they’ve finally found you
And somehow, you’re okay
And I don’t want to tell you goodbye
The words sound so very final
I just want to keep believing
In tomorrow, and tomorrow and tomorrow
I put myself in your place
Hurt and scared and wondering
What I would give just to see your face
Just one more time, for one more minute
To see you laugh and smile

To see the pleasure you get from life
Just once more forever, for a while
No, I don’t want to say goodbye
For the world’s much better with you in it
I don’t want to let you go
I only want just one eternal minute
At night I close my eyes and I fear I’ll see you lost
I want so badly to take your hand
To guide you to safety, to the light
But when I wake up shaking
I’m all alone again, just me and the night
So, I won’t say goodbye
If it’s the end, I can't really tell
But if it is, I offer you my hand
And say, my friend, farewell

EPITAPH

Everything changed in the blink of an eye

The sky fell without warning

The only thing certain is that I would die

And we were separated as some fell below

And I was thinking to myself

You go-we go

But when I awoke from that brief death

I somehow found my way out

And smoke was all around me

And the sun had been put out

I found myself alone

And I was sure the world was done

That this was the end

And morning would never come

As I fought for breath

Against the smoke and dust

Emptiness all around me

And my hope for my brothers, crushed

Soon there were others with me

Lost and trying to escape

I feared another explosion

My heart stood still while my feet moved straight

One step and then another

And they were left behind

But I can still see my brothers

Every night in my mind

And how do I answer the doubts

That hit me high and low

That wasn’t the way it was supposed to happen

I can hear their voices, you go-we go

And I still have my family

But they don’t have theirs

I can feel them struggling for life

Where no one can find them, down there

And I live each day knowing I was lucky

But not knowing why

Why did I make it out

While so many died

And life does go on

Though it may never be normal again

For I lost little pieces of myself that day

With each brother gone, with each lost friend

Their faces will haunt me

This one thing I know

When it’s all on the line

You go-we go

And I wish I could forget

But I hope I never do

For if I forget the horror

I may forget them too

I make this promise to myself

And to them

To never forget

But not to fall back in

To keep moving ahead

And to take it slow

And I whisper words I pray they hear

In my heart, you go…we go